I've talked before about my control issues. I have always had a life plan. A plan for my career, and a plan for my personal life. And so far, life has fallen in line with that plan. I know this is not all from my own accord, but I have spent a great deal of effort following the plan.
Well as of last Tuesday after my dissertation defense, my committee stated, "Congrats Dr. Tyler," and I realized that the plan was done. And now, I'm faced with the unknown. Getting my doctorate by 27 was it. It always seemed so far; I never thought about the after.
So, what now? What do I want the rest of my life to look like? What are my goals for the next several decades? What is important for me to spend my time doing? Of course, focusing on my young family is a top priority. And sure, there is the work that accompanies this degree. But what about the rest of my identity in the coming years? I was good at being a student, on pushing forward; I fear stagnation and how it makes me feel.
But as I prepare for this new season, I'm looking forward to discovering a sense of calm in the stillness.
The fulfillment of living in the present, instead of moving from deadline to deadline.
What kind of hobbies will I take up? What kind of activities will I enjoy? G has only known me as an academic, and even he has questioned the person I will be now that it's over.
I am so excited to uncover this next mystery. Because so far, life has been very calculated and designed.
This start of something new is exhilarating.
P.S. Taken this weekend at 34 weeks.